happy birthday !

jus reached home not long ago.
today is my birthday..
but doesnt seems to be a happy one?
anyway, thanks to all who tried to make me happy :D
celebrated at 57 (:
had cakes, fries, balloons !
thanks to those who were there.
peishan, vic, tingyi, shawn, longhao, tianlong, crystal, christopher, anthony, susheng, ah qiang, kelvin, haowei, louis, ahwee, leonard, peixing, jolene..
after everything, took the heart shaped balloons home (:
tmr going orchard ! :D

i've decided to give up.
fate decided to go against me.
i am sicked and tired of going against fate.
today's my bday.
yet no words of wishes from you.
how hurt i am, you'll never know.
perhaps, its retribution.
i deserve it.
你们要快乐 (:
a soso not happy, happy birthday ):

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okay, back to blogging.. (:
o'lvls chinese on monday was alrights luhs?
take back results then see whether wan retake anot bah..
didnt went for dnt ytd..
damm long luhs, the time !
9.30AM-5.00PM !
sot arhs?
went for c'boy's match ytd :D
they won yuying, 18-29 !
then home.. and went geylangwest cc for trainings.
trained till 9plus?
then cabb homed !
today went school for english prelims orals.
damm difficult las !
sianed diaos.. ):
skipped dnt again :P
hohos !
going out soon, for cboys match again.
vs fairfield methodist? (:
jiayous ! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAISIN ! :D:D:D
12HOURS MORE TO MY BIRTHDAY ! (:

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today went trg..
then macdonalds to eat.
then tnet to watch ghost movie..
watched house of mad soul..
not nice one..
not scary de..
lol~
then went hawker to eat..
then homeeee i am :D
going out later again..
i hate my family.
everyone does not seem to even care abt me.
duno if i am really one of the family anot..
eveerything also seems like its my fault..
freak you las !
5more days to my birthday,
2more days to o'lvl chinese..
such a wonderful family..
to give me such a HAPPY birthday..
and such a STRESSLESS o'lvl..
thanks alot ahhhh..
my feelings are damm random like hells.
shitts !
i may not be blogging for sometime..
if i am not in the mood..
and mayb there's some problems cropping up..
so bye readers :D
anw, i doubt there's readers too..
no one really cares..
ah wadever luhs..

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changed my blog song :D
would you be there by redwan ali (:
nice song, super touching !
so today's intensive mt was slackish.. :X
did abit, really abit paper 2..
then slp :D
slp until 11am..
wake up, recess xD
LOL !
then go back class.
mr lee do some admin work..
then 12.45 end sch :D
cabbed to tpy sports hall.
watched A'div girls match.
VJC vs RJC..
VJC won by 3points.
53-50..
then cabbed back to sch for trgs.
ran 3rounds school..
i almost sehed..
too long didnt run alreadys..
then ran 5full courts.
then bla bla, training ended at 5.30?
went bbt..
then homed :D
my head is spinning like hell now..
grrrrrrrrrrrrs !

i duno if i really love you now?
even if i love you,
its impossible for us to be tgt..
blame it on myself for not cherishing things.
i always regrets when things are gone.
hais.

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yesterday (after12) was okok luhs.
intensive mt as usual..
but i slp thruout the day?
HOHOS ! :P
after sch went tnet..
wwatched vcd..
then homed, bathed, went back tnet.
then went hawker makan.
then to my house downstairs..
see them play bike..
do stunts o.o
lol !
then homed at 12plus :D
6 more days to my birthday ! (:
3 more days to o's chinese ! ):

napfa GOLD !

hohohos !
i got GOLD for napfa !
hooooooooorays !
rejumped my standing board jumped for more than 10 times?
cos at first it was 143 nia.. which is 0 point..
and i rejumped..
got 157..
then i need 165 to get 3points..
so i rejumped many times..
til i got 165 :D
yay'ness !
i redo my inclined pull up too.
until i got 10, which is 3points too :D
so i got GOLD for napfa !
damm happy luhs !
cos my board jump and incline always fail one.. :P
today's intensive mt okok las..
i slped from 8plus-9.30 :D
ms heng didnt wake me up..
guess many people also slp?
hoho~
after sch went for meeting..
then went crystal hse..
then tnet..
then homed :D

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bad day bad day bad day !
today's a bad day ! ):
intensive mt sucks as usual?
sianning luhs !
after school didnt went training.
cos of some things.
and so some "quarrels" happened?
wadever..
i dont have the heart to think of anything alreadys.
my fking heck care attitude is back..
but who cares?
sighs~

who's there when i am down?
when i am sad?
i am just a loser.
nobody understands me.
so sucidal'ish.. ):
hais

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my mood super not good.
ahshits !
didnt went school today.
i hate intensive mt like hells la !
super sianning lors !
woke up at 2pm today :D
hohos~
then used com till 5plus.
went to meet peishan.
go sch actually fetch vicwee de..
but he went to find kim..
so we went to buy bubble tea.
then went to find him..
then went cc.
after awhile went 64 to play bball..
then went hawker awhiles..
then homed..
dun feel like going school tmr again.
ah shit !
but i cant ponn anymore ):
cos there's training tmr and i ponned today alrs.
sianed !
my mood's like SHIT now !
how i wish someone is here?
i've got a feeling, my birthday wont be a happy one.
i hate this yr.
so many troubles, stress.
and o's chinese is next week.
and my head is messed up with lots of r/s and other shitys probs.
shit it las !
okay, gotta siam alreadys.
if not tmr really no need go sch ler..
okay, bye !

i felt so silly and stupid.
believing you 3times.
wad if i've fallen for another him?
its already too late.
i cant turn back time.
so blame it on myself again.
i'll let go on the both hims.
i am just so tired of loving anyone.
leave me to be loveless.
sighs ):
i dun deserve any rights to love.
when will i ever learn to cherish?

some random pictures (:

bugis, 11may2007








school; class





happy toilet's poster ! (:


minnieeeeeeeeeeeee !


minnie and mickey :D

liangpieng's birthday










DONUTSSS ! (:




dueba purple lens :D:D:D







weird shape ice cream LOL!

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ytd, went raffles city with both sis and mum.
went to queue for donuts.
queued for 2hrs?
bought 3dozens of donuts ! :X
donuts super super nice luhs !
then went to walk ard..
saw an espirit bag.
duper duper niah !
but price more nicer 129$
hohos :X
then went to city hall mrt to meet the dueba len person.
collect my lens ler.. :D
then bused home !
sianning day today alrights !
10 more days to my birthday ! (:
7 more days to o'lvl chinese ):

stupid things happening 10days before my birthday..
fk luhs !
this time, i really give up..
3rd time giving up on the same person..
abit stupid uhs?
wtfs!
i hate myself for believing you again and again..
grrs ! ):

(:

hohos !
i ordered purple dueba lens (:
weeeeeeeeeeets !
50bucks for one yr niahs xD
going to collect later :D:D:D
yay'ness !
i want to make my hair during the hols !
sianning luhs..
duno whether to put extension or dye?
and i wan to get my eyebrows trimmed !
rah rahs !
sianning !
my birthday in 11days ! (:
o'lvl chinese in 8days ! ):

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today, went tnet.
then went dragonboat at bedok reservoir..
super sunny las !
heng got put sunblock :P
hhohos !
very fun luhs !
played in the platform in the middle of the reservoir.
and rocked the boat in the reservoir too !
but dragonboating is very tiring las..
ended ard four.
then tu si gan.. until 4.45 then take bus back.
ended up, reached chuplao at 5.10.
then i needa go home take shoes and change jersey.
so i was late for 10mins?
hohos~
then bus damm long then come.
reached there 6.15?
was late las,, but coach more late :P
lols !
use the outdoor court awhile..
then went indoor alreadys.
the court super super slippery las !
then training ended at 8pm.
bathed, washups.
took bus back to chuplao.
then went hawker makan.
then slacked until 2am plus.. (:
sat motorbike jus now..
the feeling is damm shiok la !
its my first time sitting bike..
very stupid i noe :X~
HAHAHA !
how good would it be if my future boyfren has a bike?
HOHOHOS !
okay, enough of siao'ness ! :P
byesss !

stucked in love triangle like wad ps said?
i think so?
which way to go?
or none?
sighs ):
i duno whether to love or dont love.
i know, once i start to give up, something will happen again,
tell me not to give up.
ahh, i duno ! sighs ):

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ytd, intensive chinese.
whole day chinese.
damm boring las !
still got FIVE more days to tahan !
grrrs ~
did compo for 1st 1hr30mins.
then did mock exam..
i did until i fell aslp.
super tired la~
then got woke up by danny nng.
then recess,
then orange lab, go thru papers.
so sianning luhs !
after sch went cc cafe.
then went bugis with peishan, jiemin, kim.
walked ard.
then bused back at 6.
then bla bla bla...
lazy type :P
should be having peerleader today meeting at 10am.
but i woke up late.
so didnt went..
somemore, later 1pm got dragonboat.
and 5.15 meeting teammates for trg at ccab.
its at bukit timah, and its damm FAR ! -.-
training starts at 6pm.
and i think its gona end at 8plus/9?
so damm late !
by the time i reach chuplao, its 10/11?
sianned !
i've got tons of photos to upload..
but i am lazy and i dun have the TIME to upload :X
and i doubt anyone wants to see the photos too?
hehs x)
okay, i'll upload if anyone tags my blog for pics :P
HOHOHOS~
shoooooooo~ alreadys !
bye ! :D:D:D
12days to my birthday ! (:
9days to o'lvls chinese ! ):

):

i am duper blurred today..
arghs !
early morning change into school uniform tat time,
i wore pe shorts inside..
then want wear skirt, duno why end up taking off my pe shorts..
zzz !
then went sch..
was "late" and had to walk quickly to parade sq.
then left my shoe bag in parade sq after assembly..
zzzzzzzz !
luckily classmates help me bring back to class..
then first 2periods english..
went thru oral exams skills..
then was dnt.
i slp in class and ponned dnt.
actually i slp for 1period
wake up, then duno whether to go dnt.
then decide not to go..
cos didnt do folio, 1period also gone le..
then see fnn students play cards.
then 11 went recess.
after recess went class, physics.
helped mr lee refill markers..
then was maths..
no teacher, slack.
then was chemistry.
did abit chemi.
then went bball rm.
talked abt strategy/formation thingys.
then went canteen, still raining.
then went back bball rm.
then went 7-11.
then homed (:
intensive mothertongue tmr.
damm shit las !
chinese the WHOLE DAY !
die die die !! #$%$%^%&^&*

thinking whether to buy normal purple lens..
or dueba lens?
dueba can last for a yr while normal ones is a month.
dueba can make the eyes larger and shinier too..
hohohos, duno which to buy lars..
sianed diao !

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today went sch in pe attire..
heng ar, if not kana paint liaos..
LOL !
morning went to "wash toilet"
LOL~
didnt really wash la..
jus splash water ard :P
then 10.15 went for recess.
we self declared recess until 11.30..
then went back class.
drew the poster..
then went to art room to paint.
then 3plus went to play bball awhile..
with ks, siok, szeying, mshuang.
damm hot las, the sun..
then ard 4plus went home (:
slp til 8plus.
then wake up alreadys :D
lessons as usual tmr..
sianning lars !
there's training tmr !
hohos !
i miss trainings las :P
hahaha !

again yet again.
i am stupid to believe in you.
maybe we are really not fated to be tgt.

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school was sianning today lars..
i flunked most of my subjects like hell.
i only had man zu gan in chineseP1 and EL1..
englishP1: 19/30(compo niah)
chineseP1: 14/20(letter), 31/50(compo)
total, 45/70.. minus wrong words(3)
its only 42/70 !
but at least i quite man zu alreadys la.
today got napfa..
did quite badly las..
sianning !
then went back class slack..
after recess gt chemistry.
then dnt..
"quarrel" with mr foong again.
he claim tat i talk very "rough"
then i say i talk is like this one..
then he ask me be more girlly.
i dulan bodohs..
then scold him.. huan lo so much for wad?
idiot la~
then went to side of the class and sleep :D
hohos ! XD
then he come "apologise"..
but hiew lan him, continue slp..
after sch went home.
prepared, then went to meet liangpieng, her bday. (:
took bus to katong.
then went book teoheng.
then went to eat..
with liangpieng, kaisin, siok, steph, szeying, xiaomei.
then went teoheng.
teoheng until 9plus..
then cab back to chuplao :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIANGPIENG ! (:
HOHOHOS ! xD

(: OR :(?

didnt post for few days alr?
didnt feel like blogging, so didnt blog (:
i flunked my myes damm badly la.
wtf?
sianed !
i kinda "quarrel" with mr foong today.
cos of bladdy dnt folio.
dnt folio sucks la.
sian 1/2 !
17 more days to my bday :D
14 more days to o's chinese ):
super sianning alrights?
and intensive chinese starts this friday.
chinese for the whole day..
can kill people ar !!
holidays quickly come;
tthen can dye hair/put extension..
wear colour lens( purple/ hazel/ green?)
still thinking whether to put purple/red extension?
hohohos ! XD
and and and last but not least,
my bday ! :D

i lost to myself again.
so soft hearted, and believe in ur words.
i hope its true this time.
i duno to love or dont? ):
i am afraid to love..
ah shit !

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jus now went cc, tnet.
then 19 then hawker, then 57..
then home at 12plus (:
suay sials..
tio screened by QX at 57.
check ic and bla, ask us go back home.
but we walk one round, then go back 57 again..
lol :D
hahaha !
LAST PAPER TMR ! SCIENCE1 (:
YAY !
finally, enjoy ! XD

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didnt blog ytd, hohos..
ytd went cc, tnet, play bball at19..
then hawker, then 57 then homed :D
lazy blog luhs :P
haha !
today, woke up at 9am.
dnt paper start at 10.30.
went to meet crystal at 9.45.
ate at market..
then went school.
dnt paper super diff?
mayb cos i never study? :P
did for 1hr, slp 1hr, stare at the ceiling for half hr.
LOL !
after paper went homeeee (:

十六岁的天空

十六岁的天空

____到了十六岁, 每个人都会体验到生活的重大考验. 我的十六岁的天空就环绕在压力里. 为了我自己的将来, 我只好努力读书, 才能享受我应得的成果.
____每个人都会对自己的生活有不同的想法和看法. 有些人会过着无忧无虑的生活, 有些人会过着忙碌和充满压力的生活. 到了中四, 每位学生都需要经历一个大考试. 那就是'O水准'和'N水准'会考. 这个会考将会决定我们的未来.
____我, 在十六岁时, 就要考'O水准'了. 因为中一到中三不努力读书, 现在, 我后悔了. 我没有把我的基础打好, 到了中四很多简单的知识我都搞不清楚. 我想进一间理工学院, 修读电子资讯. 但是, 这个科目的最底收分是我望尘莫及的. 所以为了争取我想要的未来, 我只好牺牲很多东西.
____我的十六岁的天空并不是轻松的. 它是充满压力, 忙碌又艰苦的. 如果时光可以倒流, 我情愿牺牲一点时间, 也不要像现在那么辛苦.

so above was my chinese composition for the zuo wen bi sai.
scored 31/50, but after minusing the wrong words, only left 28.5 ):
my chinese sucks like hell la.
i think this is the first compo which got so high. :X
haaha~
bye ! :D

emo emo !

two more papers; end of exams ! :D
however, chinese o's are in 20days !
and my bday is 23days away !
freaking bored now las..
i want buy colour lens !
hahaha !
stil thinking whether to buy purple/green/hazel?
any suggestions?
LOLS ~
holidays are going to be boring la..
and now, i am bored too..
my blog is fking boring too las !
taggy is rotting !
sian sian sians !
i feel like eating toast !
LOL~
but this time, how to find toast sials?
sian diaos ! ):

no idea wad's happening.
this time, i'll give up.
its true.
i hope nothing can make my decision change again.
被爱是幸福的, 爱人是痛苦的;
爱的如此痛苦, 我情愿不要爱;

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today's english2 was FLUNK la !
damm damm damm difficult lor..
chemistry still okok las..
sian sian !
ahh, i am damm bored ):
no need go sch tmr ! :D
HAHAHA !
date me out tmr anyone? :P
LOL !
okay, byes ! XD

):

sian sian !
why do i always have to 爱错?
i couldnt treasure the one who really loved me.
but i went to love someone who doesnt love me?
i didnt noe i hurt you that much;
now that i noe, i'm sorry.
how stupid can i be?
ah fkfkfk !
cos of my stubborn'ness/attitude.
again and again.
sometimes, i seriously hate myself.
sigh- ):

(:

today's paper;
maths 2 and chinese 2.
maths 2 was okok la..
but dun think i can pass :X
chinese worse.
read until i almost fell aslp LOL
after sch went home.
then went geylang east meet crystal.
then back to cc; cafe.
then roy came, he kept making us laugh la !
LOL !
then homed (:
tmr will be having english2 and chemistry !
HOHO~
gona die man :X
LOL !
no need go sch on wednesday !
hooooooooooooorays ! :D

(:

short post; cos its late already..
went bugis ytd.
bought peixing's bday present (:
hahaha !
walked ard.
then went back chuplao.
went tnet..
slack.
today's mdm last day already ):
quick sad luhs?
ok gotta siam now !
byeeeeeeeee !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIXING :D
hahahah ! :P
bye la ! (:

):

its sunday already.
so ytd, went nowhere?
jus down to hawker, 57.
damm sianed las !
reached home only at 3am..
sianing sianing sianing !! ):

may is a month full of people's bday..!
and i hadnt bought any of them yet !
LOL :x
hahaha !
who wants to accompany me out to buy stuffs? :D
lol !
my taggy is rotting again, AGAIN !
LOL !
okay, bye !

):

its sunday already.
so ytd, went nowhere?
jus down to hawker, 57.
damm sianed las !
reached home only at 3am..
sianing sianing sianing !! ):

may is a month full of people's bday..!
and i hadnt bought any of them yet !
LOL :x
hahaha !
who wants to accompany me out to buy stuffs? :D
lol !
my taggy is rotting again, AGAIN !
LOL !
okay, bye !

):

had two papers today again..
geography and chinese1.
geography was quite diff?
duno can pass anot.
chinese was not bad :D
lol !
after sch went cc, tnet then homed :D
finally its weekends again !
i love weekends ! (:

when i didnt wan to see you,
you appeared..
wtf is wrong with my life?
things kept going wrong.
no matter what; i'll forget you !

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jus got home not long ago :P
lols !
today's paper, maths1 and science-physics.
super flunkish la !
sure sure sure fail !
LOL ~
okay sua..
nvm.. LOL
after sch went singpost with crystal, tingyi, chrissim.
cabbed there, then ate kfc.
then went popular, walk ard.
then went tnet.
then 5plus, went home.

watching the ying yue ge dou sai thingy now.
superstar one..
got cai ming you.
he super shuai lor :P
LOLS !
geography and chinese1 tmr.
buang ar !! LOL !

the only thing i could do to forget u,
is to hate you.
although this is not the outcome i want,
but i've got no choice but to do this.
i am tired of dragging on and on.
how i wished i hadnt soften on your msgs tat day.
i dun wan to love anymore ):
sigh-

my mood went downhill.
argh !
lessons today super boring las..
first was maths.
i slp for last 20mins?
then when about to bell ring,
akram ask me wake up..
i wake up, look at him..
then slp again LOL !
next was ss.
free period, cos ss myes over already.
slp again.. :P
weather super good..
somemore i sitting beside the window..
then was english.
free period again..
cos didnt bring tenyrseries..
played bingo with liangpieng, steph, daph..
lame game :X LOL !
then recess, double chinese.
i kei siao say didnt bring book.
so didnt do anything lor..
then was V.E
discussed about the cip thingy.
then after sch went home.
took books.
went cc cafe.
makan, then went tnet.
study awhile.
then went macdonalds find crystal.
left macdonalds ard 9plus..
then homed (:

i cut my wrist infront of you..
you dared me, and i really did.
you are the 2nd one already.
i am feeling like fk !
i want to give up.
i must i must i must !
sigh- feeling damm fk up )*:

4th post for the day.
ahh, boring like fk bodohs !
idiot idiot idiot !
my dnt folio which is due tmr is not done yet.
omgf !
i am going to DIE tmr !
lessons as normal tmr.
screw the school man !! F5F5 !!
arghhhh~
from ytd 1pm til now, i haven eaten anything :D
hohohos !
jianfei jianfei !
i wan cut 5kgs la !
stupid weather..
i am sitting infront of the fan..
but i am still hot like hells..
idiottttttt ! :X
sian sian !
still need to wait until 7pm.
then meet peishan go study at mcdonalds.
SIANS !
i am fking bored cans?!
ahh HELPPPPPPPPPP! :O
entertain me laaaaaaaaaaaaa ! ):
my mood's not that good now !
AHHHHHH~
i feel like screaming ! )*:

我不想爱了
its so difficult to love you.
i rather you dont msg me on 14o4o7.
jus let me give up on you that once.
and not love you anymore.
i regret myself,
for falling into you so easily.
its really a bottomless pit..
sigh.. :*(

changed blog song (:

changed my blog song (:

Musical: High School Musical
Song: When There Was Me and You


It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

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its 1st of MAY ! (:
and therefore, its 30 days to my bday :D:D:D
yea ! NC16 sooon !
27more days to my chinese o lvls.
i think i gona flunk it like hells la !
i hateeeee chinese !
and after chinese o's, 5more months will be o'lvls alreadys.
oh ya, to add on..
i skipp chinese remedial on friday.
and there's double chinese tmr.
i feel like early depart tmr?
SIAN !
CHINESE SUXS LA :x
OMG !
I DIDNT BRING BACK MY CHINESE HW !
okay, i am going to die tmr..
RAH RAH !! ):

this yr my bday falls on a vesak day, public holidays.
i wan many many people go ton ! XD
happy happy :D
this month i am going to be broked !
many many people's bday las !
omg omg !
i think i've got more than 8frens borned in MAY !
this yr i dun wan anymore soft toys bday presents ar !!
LOLS !
my home can open a soft toy shop already las..
super many softtoys..

i am like talking to myself la..
and my taggboard is rotting like hells.
guess no one reads my blog either.
sad :*(
i am duper bored at home !

):

i confused my feelings.
really really love you.
but do you really love me?
sigh..
everybody is asking me to give up.
but it isnt easy for me to do so.
you made me felt like a princess.
i really missed that time,
o6o4o7 ):
i knew you somehow care.
but, its really different this time.
i duno how to describe it.
but, i really miss you.
looking forward to every weekends.
cos i may get to see you..
sigh..
should i give up or dont give up?
i've got no idea las..
imissyou, iloveyou

):

went suntec at ard 8pm?
lols !
ate haagen dazs ! (:
super nice las ! :P
then went arcade..
then cab back chuplao.
went home changed..
then went hawker..
around 1plus went cycling.
this time lesser and lesser people already.
went tanjong rhu.
then went ecp.
reached there went mac.
then see the weather, about to rain again..
lol !
then around 3am chiong back chuplao.
halfway( joochiat ), saw QX.
but didnt chase us i guess?
then chiong super fast.
cos i sitting on handle, which is illegal and dangerous?
then turning into geylang east there,
saw QX again !
suayed la..
but didnt chase after us also la (:
then went 57.
awhiles more homed :D